so i have decided to have two parts to my blog: the informative part of my day to day going ons and then the emotional stuff ... yeah yeah, i get emotional and mushy and stuff, although there may be overlap between the two because emotional shtuff tends to stem from the day to day going ons ...

anywho ... onto the most recent emotions. my japanese teacher asked all of us what we wanted most and i responded with "renai" - for those who don't speak japanese, renai means romantic love. yeah im going through one of those moods where i would like to have that special someone to cuddle with. and right now i want to cuddle with a particular korean boy and it pisses me off because logically it doesnt make any sense because i dont speak korean and he doesnt really speak english and we have to communicate in japanse (he is also an exchange student) and of course his japanese is super good, while mine is still at a level at which deep conversations are impossible. therefor, why do i like this boy? because of some stupid feeling i get in my stomach when i do talk to him and hang around him. all i know is that boys suck!!! why do they have to be so darn nice and cute and wantable ... grrr!!! and then there is the other japanese boy who had offered to take me places and asked me to come to his house sometime but i only see him once a week so i dont really get to measure the potential of that. all i want is just a fairy tale ending ... is that too much to ask for? huh, i dont think so.

ok, bye!