warm wind ...

today there is a warm wind blowing, finally starting to feel like winter is over in this place. i love how green everything is here. the green is so vibrant, you can just feel life. i guess growing up in southern california where it doesnt really rain, ive just never seen such vibrant green in so much abundance. feeling kind of blah lately. dont know why ... the other two say they have been feeling similarly. is this delayed culture shock? is this homesickness? it comes and goes and dont know quite how to deal with these emotions. sometimes i just want to be alone, is that so bad? really starting to realize that i like my independence. my host family is great and all, but sometimes it would be nice not to have the responsibility of telling them what time ill be home, and other family duties. guess u have to take the good with the bad huh? also, it kind of sucks right now because i still feel like my otousand doenst really like me right, maybe because last week i was gone a lot. just get over it!!!

just 7 weeks before i go home. going by really fast, but in a way im excited. might be going on a road trip to san fran, might have friends come visit me, looking forward to a car when i go back to school and being able to take friends home to float down the river when its hot and go sledding when its cold. looking forward to the freedom! wonder if i will actually take advantage of it or be like i am now, just a bum! this is so unsual of me! oye!